fine tuning the trajectory
It's difficult to come back to the blog after an absence without explaining what I was up to, what kept me from writing. I always feel I owe some sort of explanation for an unannounced silence.
In this case, it was pretty simple: changes are coming in my life and I needed some time to consider them. I find that when I'm sharing my thoughts with others on a more-or-less constant basis that my ability to work through deeper issues is lessened. This is why, every so often, I take some time to myself to just ... ponder. Often I don't realize I need to do this until I'm doing it, which is often why it comes without much warning.
I don't want to overstate it, however. I wasn't engaged in intense 24x7 meditations. I did take some time for family, enjoying mid-winter play with family and friends. Sledding, water sliding, geeking out at science museums with my son; building igloos in the mountains and watching fireworks on New Years with my wife. That sort of thing.
Most of the time, however, I was re-centering myself, finding where my energy is (and isn't) and working out what I wish the next few years to look like. I'm comfortable with the conclusions I have come to, and thankful for the support I've received during this process, particularly from family.
The path these decisions will have me embark on is not entirely easy nor comfortable. It embodies the good kind of the "scary": the tension that comes from doing something really exciting, really out there on the edge of your abilities; something that you can not guarantee a positive outcome for 100%, but which you really, really want to do with all your being and you know is within your abilities if you strive hard enough.
One of the most significant results of all the pondering in relative silence is this: My role within KDE and my relationship to the F/OSS community is going to be changing this year in fairly significant ways.
I will be writing more on this over the course of the week, culminating in an announcement on Friday that I hope you will find as exciting as I do. :) Thanks for reading: fine tuning the trajectory
In this case, it was pretty simple: changes are coming in my life and I needed some time to consider them. I find that when I'm sharing my thoughts with others on a more-or-less constant basis that my ability to work through deeper issues is lessened. This is why, every so often, I take some time to myself to just ... ponder. Often I don't realize I need to do this until I'm doing it, which is often why it comes without much warning.
I don't want to overstate it, however. I wasn't engaged in intense 24x7 meditations. I did take some time for family, enjoying mid-winter play with family and friends. Sledding, water sliding, geeking out at science museums with my son; building igloos in the mountains and watching fireworks on New Years with my wife. That sort of thing.
Most of the time, however, I was re-centering myself, finding where my energy is (and isn't) and working out what I wish the next few years to look like. I'm comfortable with the conclusions I have come to, and thankful for the support I've received during this process, particularly from family.
The path these decisions will have me embark on is not entirely easy nor comfortable. It embodies the good kind of the "scary": the tension that comes from doing something really exciting, really out there on the edge of your abilities; something that you can not guarantee a positive outcome for 100%, but which you really, really want to do with all your being and you know is within your abilities if you strive hard enough.
One of the most significant results of all the pondering in relative silence is this: My role within KDE and my relationship to the F/OSS community is going to be changing this year in fairly significant ways.
I will be writing more on this over the course of the week, culminating in an announcement on Friday that I hope you will find as exciting as I do. :) Thanks for reading: fine tuning the trajectory
0 comments: